Oh the View
As I spend my time in Eureka Springs healing and sorting out my lives I come to understand such a dynamic duality in myself.
I recognize what I call the "false" reality, the realty that has suffered from attachmnets and illusions and expectations. Then I have my spiritual reality, the one that knows there is something more, something deeper. I challenge myself to be disciplined and attentive to the depth rather than the surface.
As I sat in a restaurant this evening I observed myself as I do each day, as my practice, that of "self study" and I noted how already in just this lifetime I have experienced and mastered so much of the "false" reality. I have indulged and engaged in the finest of fun and drink and relationships. I truly have mastered the art of the life that is so readily visible to most. Perhaps that is why I can make the choices that I am making now. The choices to live alone, go solo, sit forever until the next impulse and god-given realisation emerges. After so much participation in drink and entertainment and love I am now filled to the limit of the knowledge I desired. I have attained the mastery of life as we know it. I have accomplished great tasks with not enough reward and satisfaction. It has catapulted me to my path of spirit and devotion. I no longer have the choices of my past. They no longer suit me. I am changed. I am becoming what awaits within me.
Each day I greet a new understanding and I face yet another mystery. I anx at the withdrawal and no turning back. I sob with great release. I celebrate knowing life could always be this grand. I look to the day that this way of life is natural. I look to the day that I can not imagine ever having done it differently.
I recognize what I call the "false" reality, the realty that has suffered from attachmnets and illusions and expectations. Then I have my spiritual reality, the one that knows there is something more, something deeper. I challenge myself to be disciplined and attentive to the depth rather than the surface.
As I sat in a restaurant this evening I observed myself as I do each day, as my practice, that of "self study" and I noted how already in just this lifetime I have experienced and mastered so much of the "false" reality. I have indulged and engaged in the finest of fun and drink and relationships. I truly have mastered the art of the life that is so readily visible to most. Perhaps that is why I can make the choices that I am making now. The choices to live alone, go solo, sit forever until the next impulse and god-given realisation emerges. After so much participation in drink and entertainment and love I am now filled to the limit of the knowledge I desired. I have attained the mastery of life as we know it. I have accomplished great tasks with not enough reward and satisfaction. It has catapulted me to my path of spirit and devotion. I no longer have the choices of my past. They no longer suit me. I am changed. I am becoming what awaits within me.
Each day I greet a new understanding and I face yet another mystery. I anx at the withdrawal and no turning back. I sob with great release. I celebrate knowing life could always be this grand. I look to the day that this way of life is natural. I look to the day that I can not imagine ever having done it differently.
posted by Dolphturtle at 9:51 PM
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